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Through The Dark Times.

The majority of people usually only want you around when they want something from you, so when the thing someone wants from you is just yourself, it’s a little shocking and takes quite a bit of getting used to.
You can’t let bad people ruin you for good people, all you can do is learn from those experiences and take that knowledge into a positive thing. That’s what life is about, really. Just learning and growing - it’s necessary to constantly be growing, always aiming to be better for yourself. There’s a lot you can gain from nearly every experience, positive or negative. surprisingly, you can take positivity from any situation.
Sometimes it’s hard to keep your head up when you’ve been pushed under the surface sometimes, but you’ve gotten through those, so why should this be any different?
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The Perfect Girl.

Let’s face it. It’s every man’s dream to find the so called perfect girl. In other terms, it’s also called dream girl, but that doesn’t matter. What matters though is the question, “Is she really worth it?”
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Starting Over.

Here I am. I’ve been censoring myself by not posting much of anything because I know I can be seen, but I need this space. I need a place where my fears, introspection, silliness, happiness, craziness, and honesty can live outside of my head. I’m dealing with a lot right now, and I should be able to express myself without fear. My intentions are good, but maybe it’s not my responsibility to cater to someone else's feelings, especially when it causes me to suppress my own.

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Ms. Independent.

“Miss Independent, Miss Self-sufficient, Miss Keep-Your-Distance, Miss Unafraid, Miss Out-of-My-Way, Miss Don’t-Let-a-Man-Interfere, oh Miss On-Her-Own, Miss Almost-Grown… By keeping her heart protected, she’d never ever feel rejected.”
— Kelly Clarkson

I can always take care of myself, but I still want to meet a person who can take care of me, much more than I do. The problem with being independent, is that people think you like to be alone. We don't like it but we don't have a problem about it. I know am so independent. It’s always, “Oh, no, I can do this.” “Yeah, don’t worry, I got it.”
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Playing Safe.

It’s a person that is afraid to cross a certain bridge. 
It is a person that is afraid of taking risks. 
It is a person who is afraid of rejection. 
But they are challenged to take a certain course that is further answers a yes and a no. 
They are the ones who loves to experiment things. 
Whether they fail or succeed, still in every way they move, they play it safe. 

I don’t like to be the one that gets hurt. I don’t like opening myself up to be vulnerable. Is it better to open up and perhaps end up with a broken heart or have restraint and “play it safe” ?
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The Risk.

“Ironic. Love is nothing but an irony. You’ll never know when someone is meant for you, or meant for the arms of another. And there’s no other way to know which path is for you unless you take risks. Find chances that will either be the reason for your happiness or the root of all the pain.”
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Get The Hint.

There's always that one dude who, no matter how blunt, rude, & boring you are when chatting, will continue to chat & tease. I actually can’t stand those kind of guys. We’re not in kindergarten…jokingly being rude to a girl 24/7 doesn’t work then later confess that you like her?!, it annoys the shit out of her. Sooo, uhhh, stop.
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Outta Love.

Have you ever been in a relationship for so long and then you suddenly called it quits? Or Maybe encountered other people like so?

What makes love fail? Unideal as it seems, but one of the reasons is the fact that you just grew out of love. You no longer feel the sparks that had once been there. You can never suppress that growing feeling that you are just through with this. Other people says that reason is stupid. That it’s too shallow to be A REASON for ending something that used to be so beautiful. But they should know that IT’S NOT.
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Happier & Stronger.

There are things that comes back to haunt you from the past, it doesn't matter if it comes in the form of a song, a trinket, or those people that reminds you of that pain but you know you have to find a way to get rid of it and put it somewhere away where it doesn't stop you from living your life right now.
I stopped caring. I stopped crying. I stopped getting hurt. & I got stronger.
I don’t know why, but I stopped caring about things a long time ago. I stopped caring about what people said to me. I stopped caring about these people who cause me so much pain. I stopped caring about things that don’t really matter and you know what? I’m happier because of it.
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No Regrets, Just Love.

Just because it didn't last forever, doesn't mean it wasn't worth it. It may just be worth more than anything that could last forever.
Live your life the way you want to. But make wise enough choices to not be regretting yesterdays words or actions. Just love like you want to with that person, for the rest of your life. Just love, the way Jesus love you. Just love, unconditionally, the way your parents love you. When you fall for someone, know that it's a forever thing, as to a temporary thing for the moment. Don’t do rebounds, that don’t work. True love, yeah, sweetheart, that sh*ts the real deal. That is forever. So if that’s what you’re holding onto, i want to never let go. But if you do, let it fly.  Don't regret opening your palm for that love to be gone. Live with no regrets, just love.
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Save The Argument.

When it comes to relationships — Arguments are better than silence. Because with only silence, it leads to assumptions. And with assumptions, well… usually doesn’t lead to pleasant thoughts. Arguments, at least you know what he/she is thinking and whether you should stay or just leave.-Anon

When you realize you’re wrong, you need to say ‘I’m Sorry.’-Taylor Swift


I don't have a boyfriend or someone that I can actually consider my boyfriend-to-be.. i don't have that one now but If i have a boyfriend now and if we get into fights, I won’t be stubborn with him. If I’m wrong and I know it, I’ll admit to it because fighting any further would be pointless. I won’t try and push his buttons, or try to be sneaky and do anything out of revenge. Just because he hurted me, whether on accident or on purpose, I’m not selfish enough to avenge myself just to see someone I love or care about in pain. I’ll tell him it all straight up, and I’ll try my best not to test him. I’ll tell him what I want, so I’d expect him to do the same. It’d really save us a lot of time and trouble.

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Cheating.

Cheating on a good woman with something basic, I mean your girlfriend is pretty and loyal, so why flirt & cheat with other girls?... That's like throwing away a precious diamond and picking up fake pearls.

Cheating makes me sick. If you don't want to be committed into a relationship, then don’t get into one? Simple as that. I don’t understand why people cheat in a relationship. Are you not satisfied? If not, why are you in one to begin with? It is the most disrespectful and dishonest thing someone could do to the one that they love, or supposedly love. It breaks the trust, the bond that you had with that person, and you have to live with the fact that you cheated for the rest of your life.
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Shoulder to Cry On.

Have you ever actually had a shoulder to cry on?

Not a hypothetical one. Not a text saying, “I’m here for you.” Not a phone call while you’re crying your eyes out. Have you ever been so broken that the second those arms wrap around you, the moment their body warmth touches your chest, and you feel like their love or presence is holding you together, you just fall apart? Have you ever rested your head on a loved ones or a friends' shoulder and sobbed your freaking heart out? No words, no explanation, just crying? Have you? Because I have. That is the best and the worst feeling in the world. You realize this person is here for you. I mean really, here for you. But yet you notice how fragile you are.
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Numb.

It’s a terrible thing when you’re not able to feel anything towards anybody else anymore. I guess that’s when you really know your feelings are numb and that you’ve been hurt pretty badly by someone.

It's been a month, and now I feel nothing. Before when people would ask me how I feel I would have to say “fine” because I couldn't say I feel sad, depressed, alone, mad, angry etc, etc. But now when I say “fine” I’m not hiding a feeling because I feel nothing and that's fine. When I look into my heart and my soul it’s just this big open space of numbness. I don’t feel anything and yet I think it’s the best feeling I’ve ever had.
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The Chase.

So I guess this entry would be mainly aiming toward the general male crowd, but I am sure girls would appreciate this as well.

It’s probably the best part of a relationship- probably because it hasn't even started.
The butterflies comes too easily-
So does the smiles, the laughter.
The secret glances, the jokes, the touch that sends shivers down your spine.
The shy looks, at his eyes, and then, just briefly, at his lips.

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Handling Heartbreak.

  1. Letting all of the memories run throughout your mind, thinking about how you might never have memory of him like those again.
  2. Listening to sad music, sitting there with your heart broken
  3. Trying not to cry, but not working
  4. Start out as strangers and end up as strangers again.
  5. Going through a great depression, wishing you had never met him.
  6. Wanting to kill him for breaking you heart.
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Stay Strong.

Don’t be afraid to speak up about what you’re going through. You don’t deserve to go through so much pain everyday. Stay strong.

I’ve been protecting my heart and keeping my guard’s up but that’s not gonna take me anywhere, i knoww. I guess you can say that i am scared, very scared to get close to anyone, again. Sometimes i wonder if i would actually find someone who will take their time to break down my walls. I can be very stubborn and most people give up on me as well. As much as i want to be loved, or even wanted, its just so hard for me to trust people nowadays.
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Knight In Shining Armor.

“Listen to me, mister. You’re my knight in shining armor. Don’t forget it”
—Ethel (Katherine Hepburn) ; One Golden Pound (1981)

I so love classic movies, the idea of love in it, is just so pure. :> hmmm Knight in Shining Armor? Ever watch Sex and the City and get inspiration? Yeah…me too. So, everyone wants to be saved. Not everyone wants to admit it, but we do, male or female. All my life, I read about true love and fairy tales. The white prince, dark castles, knight in shining armor, white horse and all. The thought that someone out there who 's gonna save you, it is just so romantic. Well for me it is, i love fairy tales, every night when i was a little girl i remember my mom reading every single fairy tale that there is to me and to my sister. So it kinda drilled into my mind. It taught me something, that every girl is a princess whether you're a pauper, a slave, a 100-years sleeping girl or whatever, someone out there will save you... for the love of love.

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Life Changes.

This is not how I pictured this month to turn out. Things have changed a lot and it is still changing. Its sad that I can’t see enough of my future as I would like but I just have to move on. I honestly wouldnt want to be me right now but the only thing I can do is to stay strong. It’s just something I need to accept. At this point all I can do is to not let it get to me, keep my head held high && become a better person.
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Letter To The Future Boyfriend.

All the heartaches, downfalls, happiness - the journey, you've been all there. Big thanks to the friends/loves who constantly reads my posts. I so love you all, honestly you inspires me. I hope you guys will keep on reading my stuffs and will look forward for another 50 posts. *hugggs* <3 :)

I’ve gotten a few messages asking me to describe what my ideal boyfriend would be, so instead of answering it a million times, I’ll just post this. :)

I want somebody who is both stable and consistent to their feelings towards me. I think it’s silly to break up with somebody only to get back together a few days later. Quite obviously, I’d like my partner to be completely true, honest and genuine with me, and I’d like to be able to trust them—as well as have them trust me. These days it's so hard to find someone who only wants you, the case is always i want you, but I also want her. && That freaking sucks.