Outta Love.

marahglam

Outta Love.

Have you ever been in a relationship for so long and then you suddenly called it quits? Or Maybe encountered other people like so?

What makes love fail? Unideal as it seems, but one of the reasons is the fact that you just grew out of love. You no longer feel the sparks that had once been there. You can never suppress that growing feeling that you are just through with this. Other people says that reason is stupid. That it’s too shallow to be A REASON for ending something that used to be so beautiful. But they should know that IT’S NOT.
The question there is, why will you go on when love is lost? You can’t just ignore that emptiness for in fact it is the most important factor. You just have to let that person go. It will be “ideal” to go on with your ancient love story but wouldn’t it be unfair to that someone when you let your relationship continue when all love is lost? Sometimes, we just have to accept that falling in love doesn’t go through time and spaces. For what in 500 Days of Summer said, “Some people are meant to fall in love with each other but not meant to be together.”

The worst feeling is falling out of love. You want to hold on, in the hope that things will go back to the way they were, but you know that you need to let go because all you’re doing is hurting yourself and the other person. Every time you hang up the phone, you just burst out in tears for hours because you know that things aren’t ever going to be the same again. No matter how hard you try, the present seems almost unchangeable.

Falling out of love and being heart broken are two completely different things. When I was heart broken, it was excruciating and sudden and painfully choking. When I'm falling out of love, it was slow. And confusing. And unstable. See, when you’re heart broken, you’ve hit a cold rock bottom floor that holds on to you and chills you from the inside. But when you fall out of love, it happens slowly. You don’t realize that you’re falling.

One day you just aren’t excited when he texts you. And a week later you stop getting butterflies when he calls. And you are fine with the fact that you might have to go a week or five without seeing them. And that’s what it was. After a while it became painful, sure, but in such an uneven, seasickness sort of way. Like I was riding waves of what I wanted and what I knew I didn’t need.

It hurts knowing that I wanted to be with him. But I knew that I needed someone else.

I don’t see him anymore. I don’t talk to him. But he’s still in my mind. Some days I’m totally fine and I feel like I’ve moved on. And then there are days like today when I feel completely heartbroken. I feel like there could’ve been a future.  Maybe I’m lamenting the possibility. It’s been a good long while since I saw the potential in someone. And now it’s gone. I need to stop feeling like this and start falling out of love with him... completely.

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xx, myarah