Handling Heartbreak.

  1. Letting all of the memories run throughout your mind, thinking about how you might never have memory of him like those again.
  2. Listening to sad music, sitting there with your heart broken
  3. Trying not to cry, but not working
  4. Start out as strangers and end up as strangers again.
  5. Going through a great depression, wishing you had never met him.
  6. Wanting to kill him for breaking you heart.
I listed some of the ways me and my girl friends are going through when heartbreak strikes. I've been through with the first 4 and I'm hoping that i won't get to the point that I wish that i never met him or I want to kill him. HAHAHA We have different ways of coping up with the things/situation that hurts us. Some will cry until they got tired of crying. Others will engage in physical activities to tire themselves out; leaving no time to think of the thing that hurts them the most. Some goes out with their friends; others sulk and prefer to be totally alone. Others release their pain through writing or painting and others does these all. Regardless of how we deal with it, at the end of the day, what’s important is that we are doing something to make ourselves feel better. AMEN

Me? How do I deal with a painful experience? The most basic, I cry. I cried once, twice, thrice, sometimes I lost count. But after every crying episode, I feel better. I wish I can just cry every time; every time I feel the pain. So that time will come that there’ll be no more pain. But I can’t cry everyday. I still have my life to live, I still have other things to do. I don’t have the opportunity to cry every time I want. So, to vent out, I write. Sometimes, I write poems. And sometimes, letters. Through words, I'm expressing the way I feel, what I think and what I’m going through.. I know I can get over this.
I feel like I’m getting better, happier. Slowly, but surely, I think I’m on the track to feel okay again. I haven’t seen or speak to him in almost weeks, & it helped me to begin to let go and move on. Sure, I still love him. Sometimes I miss him. But when I come to think about it, I’m lucky we ended when we did. What kinds of arguments would have erupted if we had worked things out & tried to stay together again? What else would I have compromised for him? I’m happy I don’t have to worry about that anymore. I lost myself when I was with him. I wasted so much time, and love on him, but it could always have been worse. Better late than never I suppose.
Sometimes, a part of me still wishes he’ll decide to message me , but I know it’s best if he don’t. I can’t let myself get sucked in again by him, like last time. I just can’t bring myself to block him from everything though. Even though he doesn't care about me, I still care about him, & I want to leave things open if he ever need to talk to me, just as two mature people. But I’m doing well without him. I’m reading again. I’m hanging out with so many new & different people. I’m looking for a good Fashion school, & I’m going to try to do my best in everything. Yes, things are pretty good right now, I've got friends who supports me all the way. That's all that matters.




bloggin'
xx, myarah


9 comments

Anonymous | March 15, 2012 at 8:18 PM

that's my girl! :)

Amanda | March 15, 2012 at 10:11 PM

i really admire you! i wish i could be just like you, i don't know but i feel so weak.. heartbreak gets me. But at the same time your blogs gives me good inspiration. I love it! Thanks for this! :>

Anonymous | March 16, 2012 at 2:55 AM

i am happy for everything good that is happening to you right now.. :)

Marah Gaa | March 16, 2012 at 8:30 PM

anon1 haha girl power!! loljk

anon2 aww, thank youuu, you may thought that you'll never get over it but you also thought that it would last forever.. face the reality.. let be bygones be bygones!! You're tougher than what you seem, i just know that!! :) SMILE!! :>

anon3 THANK YOUUU!! && everything,, thanks all be to God, he made me so damn stronger - i can't believe it myself!! :>

Gen | March 16, 2012 at 8:39 PM

Im so happy for you, after all the bullshit, LOOK at youu!! Alive and fighting! I really thought you'll get weak-hearted and your soul will just die there ahaha :)) i can't believe this change.. You're a fine young lady, definitely guys are waiting for you to notice them! DON'T SETTLE FOR ANYONE WAY LESSS THAN YOU DESERVE!

Keep on blogging!


-Gen

Anonymous | March 16, 2012 at 11:27 PM

perfection

foreverlonely | March 19, 2012 at 10:28 PM

Aww, Super relate ate Marah. More pa. hahaha. I really have to move on. Gusto ko nga siya, pero look . May GF na siya. I dnt think its a good idea na i-continue ko ang admiration ko sakanya, What do you thiiink? (: Pero I can't help it. I can't stop. Di ko kaya. :((((((((((((((

Marah Gaa | March 20, 2012 at 5:24 PM

Gen - thank you so much! I also thought that! haha God is good. :)

Anon4 - thanks!! :>

foreverlonely - It's definitely not a good idea, if you continue what you feel - expect that you'll get hurt.. but i'm sure you don't want that to happen right? - It's hard to move on, i know, but first things first: acceptance. That's the first step to move on. If i can do it, im sure you can! :)

foreverlonely | March 20, 2012 at 6:26 PM

Hi Ate Marah. Thankyou :)

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