The Chase.

So I guess this entry would be mainly aiming toward the general male crowd, but I am sure girls would appreciate this as well.

It’s probably the best part of a relationship- probably because it hasn't even started.
The butterflies comes too easily-
So does the smiles, the laughter.
The secret glances, the jokes, the touch that sends shivers down your spine.
The shy looks, at his eyes, and then, just briefly, at his lips.

The Last String.

I got my heart broken but I’m not mad about love instead I’m amazed on how it can change someone’s life in a blink of an eye.
“I’m thinking that sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren’t ever what you hoped they’d be. Not ever. For anybody. The only thing that separates one kind of person from another is that there are some who stay angry about it and there are some who accept what comes their way.”-Anon

Handling Heartbreak.

  1. Letting all of the memories run throughout your mind, thinking about how you might never have memory of him like those again.
  2. Listening to sad music, sitting there with your heart broken
  3. Trying not to cry, but not working
  4. Start out as strangers and end up as strangers again.
  5. Going through a great depression, wishing you had never met him.
  6. Wanting to kill him for breaking you heart.

Stay Strong.

Don’t be afraid to speak up about what you’re going through. You don’t deserve to go through so much pain everyday. Stay strong.

I’ve been protecting my heart and keeping my guard’s up but that’s not gonna take me anywhere, i knoww. I guess you can say that i am scared, very scared to get close to anyone, again. Sometimes i wonder if i would actually find someone who will take their time to break down my walls. I can be very stubborn and most people give up on me as well. As much as i want to be loved, or even wanted, its just so hard for me to trust people nowadays.

Time to Move On.

So there we were. Together but not together. And as always, not knowing what the hell we were doing and where the hell we were going.

I think I've already cried my hardest this weekend, and now i feel so weak to even shed another pints of it. One huge sigh, he should have never enter my life again, should have never came back last 2 months ago because I'm thinking if he hadn't return, i already moved on by now & accepted the fact that he's not going to be mine completely. But for some funny fate, he did came back, i won't say that i'm not glad about it because for the last two months i'm with my happiness. But then again for some reason I bumped my head so hard with the reality that our relationship isn't worth the complications anymore. That i need to move on from him, from what we had, from everything because this isn't going anywhere, he wants me to stay & he wants me to move on - i can't do it both. I don't know what's my stand on his life until last night. You people might say that I'm overreacting, but you can never really judge because you haven't felt what i felt in the first place.