I’ve gotten a few messages asking me to describe what my ideal boyfriend would be, so instead of answering it a million times, I’ll just post this. :)
I want somebody who is both stable and consistent to their feelings towards me. I think it’s silly to break up with somebody only to get back together a few days later. Quite obviously, I’d like my partner to be completely true, honest and genuine with me, and I’d like to be able to trust them—as well as have them trust me. These days it's so hard to find someone who only wants you, the case is always i want you, but I also want her. && That freaking sucks.
Passion is something I’m constantly searching for in others, mainly because I’m so passionate about things in my life. Even if i seldom shows it to other people but I'm sure it radiates around me, i love reading, fashion, arts and writing. Those are some things that I'm taking really seriously. I don’t care what it is that you’re passionate about—may it be school, music, your job, animals, etc, as long as it’s something.
Reliability is a huge one for me. I need somebody who’s going to be there for me when I need them. But don't get me wrong, I'm not clingy and most of the time i do things on my own, that how's a lil bit independent I am. It will just be nice that at the end of the day someone will be there to help me. If I can’t count on you, a relationship just wouldn't work. Being affectionate is important to me; I need to feel loved. On that same token though, I don’t like to be smothered.
I really don't have a standard when it comes to a guy, oftentimes they judge me saying "oh you must have been looking for the perfect guy: good looks, stylish, and rich" HAHA that's overrated. As long as he makes me happy, accepts and loves me for who i am, he's the one. :)
So here's my letter to my future boyfriend in case he's out there looking for me LOLjk *kidding :) I'm not rushing for a relationship, a lot of you knows that. && I already told you in my other post that i think it would just be great that whoever that 'future guy' is he'll know how long I'm waiting for him through this. <3
Dear future boyfriend,
I’m already preparing myself to be the best that I can be for you. I’m waiting for you and I’m going to make sure that you’re special. I’m sorry that I’m not perfect or if I won’t let you in straight away, but please don’t give up on me; fight for me, show me that you care. Please, don’t leave me. No one ever sticks around long enough to let me open up to them. Show me that you’re scared to lose me and that you only want me. I’m sorry if I’m difficult sometimes, but I promise that I’ll try my best to make you happy, every day, for as long as you’ll let me. I’ll give you my all and do anything I can to make you smile. I want to be able to put my trust in you and feel like you’d never do anything to make me regret that. I want us to be like best friends as well as boyfriend and girlfriend. I want you to be able to make me laugh. I can’t wait to spend time with you; for us to be right next to each other, enjoying each other’s company, even if it’s in silence. I want to be able to have deep conversations with you and talk to you about anything and everything. I want you to be romantic with me sometimes too. I don’t care if you’re a little soppy, because I like cute things.
You don’t have to buy me things, though - I don’t care about money, having you and spending time with you would be enough. I want you to make me happy, but I don’t want to just be ‘happy’, I want what we have to be amazing; all-consuming. I don’t expect things to be ‘perfect’ all the time, but I want us to be able to get through anything that happens and to be pulled in every time, because I know it’ll strengthen us and bring us closer. I’ll be loyal, honest and faithful to you, always. I want to love and be loved, I want to really feel it. I want those silly, little things that solidify a relationship. What’s mere happiness in the face of all that, right? I want us to be real. I want something that’s concrete - I want us to last.
I don’t wanna hurt you like I’ve hurt others in the past. I wanna be your go to girl, your rock, but most importantly, your friend. I can’t promise you the moon and the stars, but I’ll gladly waste my Saturday nights star gazing with you. I’ll make make you laugh with the stupid things I say. I’ll play video games with you and beat you in games of hide and seek. I’ll build blanket forts with you and cuddle with you all night. I’ll hold your hand and your heart. But most importantly, I’ll love you always, unconditionally, and completely.