Happy Holidays! I hope everyone had a Merry Xmas and will also have a prosperous New Year. New year, new love, new outlook in life. Time to bid goodbye to 2012 and start to do the countdown for 2013. I have a pretty good feeling 2013 will be good for me. I'm so looking forward for a new love, new adventures and new friends to be with. To 2012 thank you for all the hardships you taught me, that no matter how hard life will be always keep your chin up, smile that pretty smile and above all appreciate everything whether it's good or bad.-MG
It's Xmas and instead of listening to cheesy Christmas songs, I'm digging Paloma Faith's 'It's Christmas and I hate you'. A-HA-MG
This time last year was so different.-MG

Inconsistency.

One day he's here, the next day he's not. Sometimes he makes my heart melt. & sometimes he is a complete jerk and it gets really confusing. I’m starting to think this is some kinda of weird and sick joke, this thing between us, does makes no sense. I mean- he's not pushing me away, but he's not exactly coming after me either..
I thank my job for preoccupying my mind always. I love how it distracts me from thinking about him.-MG

The End.

These feelings, so complicated and frustrating because it’s been so long, these feelings for you. It’s just so foolish to dive into this switch thing, constantly on and off. In this time, i hope so badly that you’ll see, i’m right here. i don’t need a label, just some consistency. I need to know that you’re not going to wake up tomorrow and feel completely different but i know again and again you'll wake up and feel completely different. That's the truth and we both know it.
I was rummaging through my things and got a hold to my diary. One thought popped into my head instantly while reading most of it: i really have love that boy.-MG
I didn't get mad when you chose your friends over me, but you get mad when I chose my friends over you, but then right after— you chose your friends over me, again.Is it fair?-MG
I feel like I stopped being crazy.-MG

When I'm Done.

Up until this point i had convinced myself that i would much rather love you just to keep you than lose you as a friend, but its not healthy for me. Something inside me is latched on to you and wont let go and everybody knows that but i have to concede now to this losing battle because i can never win you and I'm not sure if i want to anymore.
And if we never talk again always remember that i'm forever changed by who you are.-MG
At least I know I'm messed up, not like those people who acts everything's cool but badly needs a reality check.-MG
I miss that girl who talks nothing but love.-MG

Starting Over.

Here I am. I’ve been censoring myself by not posting much of anything because I know I can be seen, but I need this space. I need a place where my fears, introspection, silliness, happiness, craziness, and honesty can live outside of my head. I’m dealing with a lot right now, and I should be able to express myself without fear. My intentions are good, but maybe it’s not my responsibility to cater to someone else's feelings, especially when it causes me to suppress my own.

I think we're both too scared.-MG
He may love you but he's not inlove with you.-MG

Ms. Independent.

“Miss Independent, Miss Self-sufficient, Miss Keep-Your-Distance, Miss Unafraid, Miss Out-of-My-Way, Miss Don’t-Let-a-Man-Interfere, oh Miss On-Her-Own, Miss Almost-Grown… By keeping her heart protected, she’d never ever feel rejected.”
— Kelly Clarkson

I can always take care of myself, but I still want to meet a person who can take care of me, much more than I do. The problem with being independent, is that people think you like to be alone. We don't like it but we don't have a problem about it. I know am so independent. It’s always, “Oh, no, I can do this.” “Yeah, don’t worry, I got it.”
Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand how hard it is in trying to change others.-MG

To The Annoying Monkey.

Let me give you 5 minutes of my time.. So how do I put this... you asked why is it that I'm only making you stop right now after 4 months? Memory check or check my past archives of comments.. I told you a couple of times to STOP before or to LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE or do you just had a tumor so it clouded your memory or wherever you put your intellect (that is, if you have one). You're so talkative with nothing but nonsense. It's annoying. Every posts that I have, you're gonna comment like it was for you? Don't be DELUSIONAL. But yes there is one... I remember the 'LEAVE ME ALONE' blog post.. you're one of the few jerks that should read that. :) I've been too nice you know, just letting you post this and that... but I had enough. It's so embarrassing, it's like I'm scolding a spoiled brat to stop, but doesn't listen. Yes, that's what you are a childish, pathetic, idiotic monkey.. right a monkey coz if you're a human.. you'll understand it right away. So PATRICK CRUZ.. leave me the hell alone.



p.s. to my readers.. i'm really sorry for those comments that you thought was so hilarious. I know it's creepy. Sorry again.

xx
Just know that during the loneliest nights, you had me, you had someone who did care.-MG
I'm so proud of my bestfriend, you deserve every blessing that you've got. & one thing's for sure i'll always be here for you.-MG

Leave Me Alone.

So yeah I made a post within 15 minutes because i'm so annoyed about these guys, leaving messages on my phone, commenting non-stop with every post that I have on this blog and there goes the list. I tried to be nice.. saying that I'm not interested or go find another girl but you guys won't listen to me. It's getting frustrating and getting out of hand... and I'm becoming embarrassed with what you guys are doing. So i'm going to let the crazy one inside me out in this post. And I'm telling you this is one of the side of me that you don't want to see... Just so you know this week has been so tough on me, and I hate people who likes to double up my burden so STOP.
I think it's better to walk away than to face another cycle of misery. Too tired to fight a losing battle. So let me do the honor of leaving.-MG
If you're going to copy some of my quotes or any part of this blog and comment or make it as your own, at least have the nerve to put credits on it, or better yet ask for my permission.-MG
If I treat you the way you treat me, you'll hate me.-MG

Playing Safe.

It’s a person that is afraid to cross a certain bridge. 
It is a person that is afraid of taking risks. 
It is a person who is afraid of rejection. 
But they are challenged to take a certain course that is further answers a yes and a no. 
They are the ones who loves to experiment things. 
Whether they fail or succeed, still in every way they move, they play it safe. 

I don’t like to be the one that gets hurt. I don’t like opening myself up to be vulnerable. Is it better to open up and perhaps end up with a broken heart or have restraint and “play it safe” ?

First Job.

I'm Marah Gaa, flying with you.
Finally i can use my spare time writing blogs, so if you haven't figured out the reason why i kinda hold off blogging it's because i'm undergoing extensive training.. for my first job as a cabin crew. *whew* It got me all stress out and honestly at times i felt like giving up. It's exhausting, physically and emotionally demanding even. I've never worked harder for anything until now and now that I've passed the Supervised Learning Experience (it's like the counterpart of the licensing exams but for cabin crews) it felt amazing. It seems like all the stress, headaches, anxiety, or deppresion that you've got while training suddenly became all worth it. I hope i'd do well. :)
I hate knowing that he's having a bad time and there's nothing I can do to change it.-MG
Life goes on and you must go with it.-MG

Battlefield.

After a few months of not blogging, i decided to write something that's kinda connected on hardships and trials, mine to be exact. People often have the perception that I get all the things I want so easily, that i don't have to put so much effort or work as twice as much as they do. They think that I actually always get something that i want to if I wish to. How funny and at the same time dreadful that some people are so shallow about what they think of me.
"You got me feeling like I'm nothing"-Taylor Swift
Just for the record, I'm still single.. and it seems like one person is spreading lies about me being officially with him. Which is very wrong considering that I don't even like him. That's so low of him, i don't even want to mention his name but I will if i have to (don't test my patience). Don't embarrass yourself. -MG
I think it's always better to be yourself, than to pretend to be someone that you're not. People will hate you for it, but you'll know who to trust and who is real.-MG

Compromise.

In every relationship, the person least interested in maintaining it is going to dominate because they’ll never compromise.-MG

The Risk.

“Ironic. Love is nothing but an irony. You’ll never know when someone is meant for you, or meant for the arms of another. And there’s no other way to know which path is for you unless you take risks. Find chances that will either be the reason for your happiness or the root of all the pain.”
"You're not even my type."-MG
"I say no to liars, cheaters, bad friends, and negativity. I don't need people making my life miserable."-MG
I love you and it's getting worse.-MG

Take You Back.

Take you back, put us back at square one, go through the same cycle, and fall apart again?. Convince me of change and I'd take you back in a heartbeat.
Obviously this is another post for my never ending love-affair with my ex-boyfriend, i was never the type to admit something in person. I always think that i'm better at writing my feelings down coz I always ending up speechless when in front of him, so if ever he'll read this, he might know how hard it was for me: I admit that I’m just a fool for you. I don't know why I think I could still trust you after everything, you haven’t proven me anything yet and I am letting you right back in. I am glad I am realizing this now because I am not going to do this again and give my 100%. I am stepping back and until you proven to me that I can trust you again, this isn’t going anywhere.

If I take you back again. Please don’t mess up this time. Don’t throw me out or use me. I want you to try. I want you to have faith in all things that's relevant to us. I want you to try like we just started dating. I want you to feel the butterflies like I do, even after all this time. I want us to work. Don’t prove everyone right and me wrong, make this work with me, because I’m trying harder than I’ve ever tried before.
Take you back, put us back at square one, go through the same cycle, and fall apart again?. Convince me of change and I'd take you back in a heartbeat.-MG
You deserve someone who knows how to make things up to you after hurting you. Not someone who is very good with just the word, "sorry".-MG
If you have an amazing boyfriend, everything seems perfect.-MG

Get The Hint.

There's always that one dude who, no matter how blunt, rude, & boring you are when chatting, will continue to chat & tease. I actually can’t stand those kind of guys. We’re not in kindergarten…jokingly being rude to a girl 24/7 doesn’t work then later confess that you like her?!, it annoys the shit out of her. Sooo, uhhh, stop.
Nothing is more sad and pathetic than a desperate person, so just stop.-MG
Stalk me all you want. I still won't like you.-MG
Guys are sometimes dumb. They know you’re not interested, and yet they still go after you.-MG
Even the strongest feeling vanishes when ignored.-MG

Outta Love.

Have you ever been in a relationship for so long and then you suddenly called it quits? Or Maybe encountered other people like so?

What makes love fail? Unideal as it seems, but one of the reasons is the fact that you just grew out of love. You no longer feel the sparks that had once been there. You can never suppress that growing feeling that you are just through with this. Other people says that reason is stupid. That it’s too shallow to be A REASON for ending something that used to be so beautiful. But they should know that IT’S NOT.
I used to think of you as someone who will never ever hurt me.-MG
Why do you have to leave?-MG

Happier & Stronger.

There are things that comes back to haunt you from the past, it doesn't matter if it comes in the form of a song, a trinket, or those people that reminds you of that pain but you know you have to find a way to get rid of it and put it somewhere away where it doesn't stop you from living your life right now.
I stopped caring. I stopped crying. I stopped getting hurt. & I got stronger.
I don’t know why, but I stopped caring about things a long time ago. I stopped caring about what people said to me. I stopped caring about these people who cause me so much pain. I stopped caring about things that don’t really matter and you know what? I’m happier because of it.
I like those birthday reminders on Facebook because occasionally they remind me of the people I need to delete.-MG
Don't talk without knowing, it saves you from the embarrassment.-MG

Real Love is Fated.

"Who's on your love life now?" "Are you currently dating?" "Who are you seeing?" "Is there someone courting you right now?"... and all the possible inquiries for my love life. Months has gone by and you know what this society expects when you had a failed relationship, they expect that after a few months, you'll get over it and get a new love life. The typical love cycle...  that is, but all i can answer to them is there's no one, no one special, no one important and no one right now that I can call mine and mine alone.

Karl Samia's Farewell.


If I was surrounded by hundreds of pretty girls, would you still notice me? -MG

Philippine Fashion Week Holiday '12.


May 27, 2012 - Me and my friends went to the finale show of this years' Philippine Fashion Week Holiday 2012. We watched Jerome Salaya Ang's fashion show entitled Sin, Skin, and Bones sponsored by L'Oreal Paris. It was amazing every piece of the collection, i'll surely wear it if I have the chance. HAHA My friends also thinks so, they're very keen on watching fashion shows like this one and like them I know a good show when I see one. :)
I'm not going to be bitter about what happened to us, because I know what we had was something real, what we had was truly special. And if ever you found yourself, come back to me.-MG

No Regrets, Just Love.

Just because it didn't last forever, doesn't mean it wasn't worth it. It may just be worth more than anything that could last forever.
Live your life the way you want to. But make wise enough choices to not be regretting yesterdays words or actions. Just love like you want to with that person, for the rest of your life. Just love, the way Jesus love you. Just love, unconditionally, the way your parents love you. When you fall for someone, know that it's a forever thing, as to a temporary thing for the moment. Don’t do rebounds, that don’t work. True love, yeah, sweetheart, that sh*ts the real deal. That is forever. So if that’s what you’re holding onto, i want to never let go. But if you do, let it fly.  Don't regret opening your palm for that love to be gone. Live with no regrets, just love.
In that moment I thought I've moved on.-MG
I'm not writing about him anymore, is that scary?-MG

Annoying Creeper.

There's always this one guy that goes “Oh, I’ll walk a thousand miles just to see your face” “I’d walk in this 15 degree weather just to see you” “We'll be together forever” lol stfreakinup. You’ve only been together for a few weeks or you've only met her just a few weeks ago. You go from one girl to another after going out for a couple weeks. That isn’t love, ugh creeper. If it was love you wouldn’t have been able to move on so quickly. She ends up hurt, you end up with another girl. Stop playing with a girl’s heart. A girl’s heart isn’t something to messed around with.

Daranak Falls.


My first nature trip this summer was in Tanay, Rizal courtesy of my MEMA friends with the warm hospitality of Bon Penaranda. :) We visited Daranak Falls to shoot the Second Season of Mema's Onlineserye: DMKSPD, i have a little role there so I hope you guys will check that out. HAHAHA Anyway what I like about Tanay is it's not as warm as it is in Manila.. it was a 2-hour drive on the way there, but it didn't became a boring trip because I'm with the coolest friends ever. :)
I hate to say this, but you still have the hold on my heart.-MG
When someone exits your life, let them go with class and style. They mattered, if only for a little while.-MG

Happier.

Time flies, it's been two months since I've got my heart broken, well you guys probably knew it. Well this latest post is not about ranting or being so miserable or so depressed. HAHAHA I'm through with those phases, thank God. Finally, I'm over it... I'm happy and it gets a little easier everyday. The wounds heal and the memories, a more distant phantom. Eventually, even the scars fade enough that the occasional reminder of their meanings brings only a curious smirk. Well you know what they say, you can never bring a good girl down. *APPLAUSE* :D
I don't want to get hurt again.-MG

Save The Argument.

When it comes to relationships — Arguments are better than silence. Because with only silence, it leads to assumptions. And with assumptions, well… usually doesn’t lead to pleasant thoughts. Arguments, at least you know what he/she is thinking and whether you should stay or just leave.-Anon

When you realize you’re wrong, you need to say ‘I’m Sorry.’-Taylor Swift


I don't have a boyfriend or someone that I can actually consider my boyfriend-to-be.. i don't have that one now but If i have a boyfriend now and if we get into fights, I won’t be stubborn with him. If I’m wrong and I know it, I’ll admit to it because fighting any further would be pointless. I won’t try and push his buttons, or try to be sneaky and do anything out of revenge. Just because he hurted me, whether on accident or on purpose, I’m not selfish enough to avenge myself just to see someone I love or care about in pain. I’ll tell him it all straight up, and I’ll try my best not to test him. I’ll tell him what I want, so I’d expect him to do the same. It’d really save us a lot of time and trouble.

I hate arguing with people whom so special to me.-MG

Superstar Cruise Virgo.


Last April 14-18, me and my sister had our first and hopefully not the last Cruising Trip. It was an Asia-Pacific Cruise, we crossed the borders of Indonesia, Myanmar, and Vietnam... then we went to a free and easy (meaning we are by ourselves, no tour guides at all) excursion trip in Singapore, Malaysia and Thailand. :)

I'm so torn between choosing what I want and what I need.-MG
When you told me that you miss me, i want to say i miss you too.. but for some reason, i can't say it back.-MG

Cheating.

Cheating on a good woman with something basic, I mean your girlfriend is pretty and loyal, so why flirt & cheat with other girls?... That's like throwing away a precious diamond and picking up fake pearls.

Cheating makes me sick. If you don't want to be committed into a relationship, then don’t get into one? Simple as that. I don’t understand why people cheat in a relationship. Are you not satisfied? If not, why are you in one to begin with? It is the most disrespectful and dishonest thing someone could do to the one that they love, or supposedly love. It breaks the trust, the bond that you had with that person, and you have to live with the fact that you cheated for the rest of your life.
For the first time in a long time, i became tongue tied. I've got nothing to say to him.-MG
Live like it's your last day to live-MG

Graduation Ball.


When you leave here, don't forget why you came. ~Adlai Stevenson, to college graduates
Don't mess with my head, or I'll mess with your heart.-MG
You think you're fooling me, but the truth is you're actually fooling yourself.-MG
Keep Calm, you're better than that.-MG
I wouldn't trade my friends for the world.-MG

You are f̶a̶t̶,̶ ̶u̶g̶l̶y̶,̶ ̶s̶t̶u̶p̶i̶d̶,̶ ̶u̶s̶e̶l̶e̶s̶s̶,̶ ̶h̶a̶t̶e̶d beautiful. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. ♥-MG

Shoulder to Cry On.

Have you ever actually had a shoulder to cry on?

Not a hypothetical one. Not a text saying, “I’m here for you.” Not a phone call while you’re crying your eyes out. Have you ever been so broken that the second those arms wrap around you, the moment their body warmth touches your chest, and you feel like their love or presence is holding you together, you just fall apart? Have you ever rested your head on a loved ones or a friends' shoulder and sobbed your freaking heart out? No words, no explanation, just crying? Have you? Because I have. That is the best and the worst feeling in the world. You realize this person is here for you. I mean really, here for you. But yet you notice how fragile you are.
Do I make it so easy to walk in and out of my life?-MG
I never thought that I could love someone up to this extent, it's scary.-MG
Love can make you stupid, no matter how smart you are. -MG
I don’t think anything lasts forever so there’s really no reason to force anything.-MG

Numb.

It’s a terrible thing when you’re not able to feel anything towards anybody else anymore. I guess that’s when you really know your feelings are numb and that you’ve been hurt pretty badly by someone.

It's been a month, and now I feel nothing. Before when people would ask me how I feel I would have to say “fine” because I couldn't say I feel sad, depressed, alone, mad, angry etc, etc. But now when I say “fine” I’m not hiding a feeling because I feel nothing and that's fine. When I look into my heart and my soul it’s just this big open space of numbness. I don’t feel anything and yet I think it’s the best feeling I’ve ever had.
Someone will come into your life to make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.-MG

The Chase.

So I guess this entry would be mainly aiming toward the general male crowd, but I am sure girls would appreciate this as well.

It’s probably the best part of a relationship- probably because it hasn't even started.
The butterflies comes too easily-
So does the smiles, the laughter.
The secret glances, the jokes, the touch that sends shivers down your spine.
The shy looks, at his eyes, and then, just briefly, at his lips.

The Last String.

I got my heart broken but I’m not mad about love instead I’m amazed on how it can change someone’s life in a blink of an eye.
“I’m thinking that sometimes you just have to make the decision to be happy. Just realize that things aren’t ever what you hoped they’d be. Not ever. For anybody. The only thing that separates one kind of person from another is that there are some who stay angry about it and there are some who accept what comes their way.”-Anon

Handling Heartbreak.

  1. Letting all of the memories run throughout your mind, thinking about how you might never have memory of him like those again.
  2. Listening to sad music, sitting there with your heart broken
  3. Trying not to cry, but not working
  4. Start out as strangers and end up as strangers again.
  5. Going through a great depression, wishing you had never met him.
  6. Wanting to kill him for breaking you heart.

Stay Strong.

Don’t be afraid to speak up about what you’re going through. You don’t deserve to go through so much pain everyday. Stay strong.

I’ve been protecting my heart and keeping my guard’s up but that’s not gonna take me anywhere, i knoww. I guess you can say that i am scared, very scared to get close to anyone, again. Sometimes i wonder if i would actually find someone who will take their time to break down my walls. I can be very stubborn and most people give up on me as well. As much as i want to be loved, or even wanted, its just so hard for me to trust people nowadays.

Time to Move On.

So there we were. Together but not together. And as always, not knowing what the hell we were doing and where the hell we were going.

I think I've already cried my hardest this weekend, and now i feel so weak to even shed another pints of it. One huge sigh, he should have never enter my life again, should have never came back last 2 months ago because I'm thinking if he hadn't return, i already moved on by now & accepted the fact that he's not going to be mine completely. But for some funny fate, he did came back, i won't say that i'm not glad about it because for the last two months i'm with my happiness. But then again for some reason I bumped my head so hard with the reality that our relationship isn't worth the complications anymore. That i need to move on from him, from what we had, from everything because this isn't going anywhere, he wants me to stay & he wants me to move on - i can't do it both. I don't know what's my stand on his life until last night. You people might say that I'm overreacting, but you can never really judge because you haven't felt what i felt in the first place.

Knight In Shining Armor.

“Listen to me, mister. You’re my knight in shining armor. Don’t forget it”
—Ethel (Katherine Hepburn) ; One Golden Pound (1981)

I so love classic movies, the idea of love in it, is just so pure. :> hmmm Knight in Shining Armor? Ever watch Sex and the City and get inspiration? Yeah…me too. So, everyone wants to be saved. Not everyone wants to admit it, but we do, male or female. All my life, I read about true love and fairy tales. The white prince, dark castles, knight in shining armor, white horse and all. The thought that someone out there who 's gonna save you, it is just so romantic. Well for me it is, i love fairy tales, every night when i was a little girl i remember my mom reading every single fairy tale that there is to me and to my sister. So it kinda drilled into my mind. It taught me something, that every girl is a princess whether you're a pauper, a slave, a 100-years sleeping girl or whatever, someone out there will save you... for the love of love.

Life Changes.

This is not how I pictured this month to turn out. Things have changed a lot and it is still changing. Its sad that I can’t see enough of my future as I would like but I just have to move on. I honestly wouldnt want to be me right now but the only thing I can do is to stay strong. It’s just something I need to accept. At this point all I can do is to not let it get to me, keep my head held high && become a better person.

Second Chances.

"Can a once-in-a-lifetime love have a second chance?"- The Vow

 I went to the movies with you-know-who-he-is. HAHAHA For weeks i keep on telling him that i really wanted to see that movie, then fast-forwarding: I literally cried a bucket of tears. It was that awesome, well for me it is. *smiles It was such an inspiring story, for a sucker of love tales like me. I just think that it set another standard for the ladies on how to choose the right guy. Channing Tatum is almost tooooo perfect in that movie, well his character to be exact. I never cried that hard for some movies in a long time now. I'm actually kinda suck at holding back my tears. I just can't help but to cry and the fact that I'm watching with 'him' made me shy coz he might thought that I'm over reacting coz i was crying all over and was so close at snotting. HAHALOL :)

Letter To The Future Boyfriend.

I can't believe I'm writing my golden post (50th) now. See how time flies. All the heartaches, downfalls, happiness - the journey, you've been all there. Big thanks to the friends/loves who constantly reads my posts. I so love you all, honestly you inspires me. I hope you guys will keep on reading my stuffs and will look forward for another 50 posts. *hugggs* <3 :)


I’ve gotten a few messages asking me to describe what my ideal boyfriend would be, so instead of answering it a million times, I’ll just post this. :)

I want somebody who is both stable and consistent to their feelings towards me. I think it’s silly to break up with somebody only to get back together a few days later. Quite obviously, I’d like my partner to be completely true, honest and genuine with me, and I’d like to be able to trust them—as well as have them trust me. These days it's so hard to find someone who only wants you, the case is always i want you, but I also want her. && That freaking sucks.

The Jealousy Game.

It’s not only women who knows how to act and react in relationships. Although most of the time, women are always on the lookout on what,how or why their men behave in some ways, men also are curious to find out if their girls really love them by making them jealous. They act in an odd manner in order to make jealous women exist. but how?

Make This Right.


Ever have that one person in your life that you just can’t give up on, the one person that can screw you overtime after time, yet you always seem to give them another chance? And no matter how many times you say this is their last one, you know it’s a lie because there’s always another chance waiting for them, but you can’t find a way to let them go?

Last night i had a deep conversation with someone very special to me. We talked for almost an hour about every little things that we can think about then we jumped on the topic about how things ended between us for over half a year ago. It's funny because now we can talk about it casually, meaning with no hard feelings whatsoever at all. :) I just realized so many things... and one of them is being too weak. I thought i was doing the right thing, but i guess it's not that right.

Worth The Wait.

and I can assure you, that when it happens we’re going to be happy that we waited.

So I'm back on blogging after a few weeks of not posting anything. I actually miss this! :> Okay guys, I'm not slacking... haha there are just some things that keeps me busy, like school and stuffs. *wink* I just want to thank those people who keeps on asking me if when's my next post will be, i actually feel flattered because i can tell they are looking forward to it, so i hope this post will be worth their wait. :) `m


People who are worth the wait, are the ones who stood by you, even after seeing the unpleasant parts of your character, or the imperfections that ornament your counterpart. When you feel dragged by self-infliction, they continue to tolerate you. You have committed so many mistakes in your life that sometimes you thought anyone would not want to stick by. Though sometimes life likes to throw in another extra, even when you think you do not deserve any.

Don't Text Her.

“It’s crazy how you can go for months or years without talking to someone but they still cross your mind everyday.”— Unknown


So me and my recent past are finally talking again, we even got to see each other more often than before. *greattimes :) It's a great feeling, i actually feel very contented and at the same time complete with my life right now. Gawwd, this is really my month or if this continues this year will be my year!. *fist-pump* When I'm with him, I've been nothing but happy. :) We've been through hell and back, God knows how painful those days are. Looking back, i can honestly say that without him, I'm a mess, a miserable of some sort, incomplete, a shattered piece, and the list goes on...

That's it, I Quit.


For too long have I let people walk all over me. People will go certain lengths to really test our strengths. They will do cruel and nasty things to get your attention or the attention of others. It’s things like this that show me what the world’s really about. It’s not safe out there, it's an everyday battle and struggle.

You say one day at a time, I say let’s just let it happen. If it does, it does. If it doesn’t, well, at least you know I gave it 100 from the beginning.

Coming at this differently, this time around. I'm doing life changes because that's it, i quit. I say goodbye to all those negativity, goodbye to the people who treats you no good, and goodbye to things that's making us unhappy. Instead, appreciate what you have, whom you have and where you are. <3

A Fresh Start.

Tragedy blows through your life like a tornado, uprooting everything, creating chaos. You wait for the dust to settle, and then you choose. You can live in the wreckage and pretend it’s still the mansion you remember. Or you can crawl from the rubble and slowly rebuild. Because after disaster strikes, the important thing is that you move on. But if you’re like me, you just keep chasing the storm. The problem with chasing the storm is that it wears you down, breaks your spirit. Even the experts agree, a girl needs closure.
Veronica Mars                                    

A closure with somebody? whatever you both had, relationship/friendship, ended, you beef or don't speak with her/him for sometime, then somewhere within that duration, you both learned to get along with each other AGAIN… and that's it. But is that what you call “closure”? whats the feeling of it, and how the hell do you know if its even closure in the first place?

The last few weeks has been so exhausting family affairs here and there, travelling and constant gift shopping but the good thing is i still manage to have a time for more personal matters, well here it goes...I think I got my closure. :)

Cheers to The New Year.

Well, we have a whole new year ahead of us. And wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could all be a little more gentle with each other, and a little more loving, have a little more empathy, and maybe—next year at this time—we’d like each other a little more.”
-Judy Garland
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Happy New Year, guys! My vacation's over, time for a new post! I know i've been such a slack. For me New year means, new beginning, time for second chances in life and making up for the wrong-doings. 2011 is not exactly my year but i hope 2012 will be! :>

So here's to 2011. to all of the disasters. to all the heart breaks. to all of the sicknesses. to all of the break ups. to all of the things that went wrong. to all of the deaths. to all of the fails. to all of the booze. to all of the bullies. to all of the bitches. to all of the money we don't have. to all the embarrassing moments. to all of the let downs. to all of the things that didn't make us happy.