"No one can look at me the same way you look at me. No one can smile at me the same as you smile at me. No one can drive me mad like you can. And even though you are around I always find myself missing you."-Blink 182
It’s strange hearing you say you miss me. I guess I never thought i’d hear you say that again. I feel apprehensive to put myself out there and allow my heart to grab hold of you fully again. Because I know if I do it will be filled with nights of not sleeping, constantly wanting to talk to you and waiting for a reply. It’s a constant battle and while I have this fight with myself deep down I know I probably haven’t even crossed your mind always like you've crossed mine. I don’t want to to be stuck in that spot again. But given the opportunity to have you back I wouldn't think twice. You’re all I want.
I just stared at his text until i fell asleep, just reading it over and over again made me warm and can't help but to smile. It's funny how simple things can still make a big impact on me. I also misses him, i miss him terribly and i want to try to talk to him, but all I end up doing is pressing backspace on the keyboard… Don't get me wrong guys, but the thing is, I think I’m getting okay. I think I’m getting over it, over him. I think I’m gonna be okay with moving on. Until I give myself just a few minutes to myself. Just a few minutes to think about all the times when I was truely happy. The times when I was so sure of myself and everything that I was…. all those times involve him. He made me better.
This love is difficult, but it's real- Taylor Swift
If that doesn't makes sense, it's just that i miss what we had & what we stood for.