Long distance relationships sucks. And I don’t mean they suck in the sense of, “avoid at all costs because they’re simply no good all together.” They suck more in the sense of, “they’re a lot harder than nearly any other type of relationship.” They’re not for the weak hearted, or the unprepared. 
A lot of the people I know around me were fortunate enough to have enjoyed relationships with someone who lived near to their place. Last week I'm talking to some of my friends who were in a long-distance relationships, I really admire them for sticking to it. I could not imagine how I would’ve managed having like that all the way in socal, or across to the eastern seaboard, or in a different continent all together. That kind of relationship must be difficult beyond what I can imagine.

The Old-Fashioned Way.

I’ve got that old-fashioned dream in my heart And there it shall always be Although the land may change to sea It will never make any change in me coz I've got that old-fashioned love in my heart.
— Old Fashioned Love
Some days, I wish I could go back in time, and be born about 80 years ago. That would be awesome. So you can call me old-fashioned but hell when it comes to love, i really take it seriously. Everyone knows that. I don't play with it, coz it's not a game to begin with. This world, hell, my generation in obsessed with physical things. They’re obsessed with large breasts, perfect figures, expensive clothing, celebrities, Marijuana, partying, and spending ridiculously large amounts of money just for the sake of boasting or bragging. Most of the men of my generation believe that a girl is not a woman if she’s fat, has/got small boobs, or doesn't walk around half naked. They've forgotten how to act, how to show respect, and it’s just really sad.

Single by Choice.

I for real don’t have a boyfriend - I sit by myself and I watch Law & Order. I don’t, like, have a boyfriend. I don’t have like even kind of a boyfriend. I don’t have someone that I’m texting that might someday be my boyfriend. There’s like nothing going on right now.— Taylor Swift on Ellen DeGeneres
I was watching Ellen DeGeneres re-runs last night so this one gives me an idea what to write right now. I'm actually on the same situation. When people are asking me if i have a boyfriend they are actually surprised to find out that i don't have one. I don't have any romantic attachment with anyone right now. I don't have someone that's even courting me. Honestly I haven't been in to any dates after my last relationship. So to sum it up i am 100% single. :)

I’m single by choice, and I will continue to be till I meet someone that deserves me.

Love And War.

"All is fair in love and war"- 1508
Last weekend, i'm surprised to received a message from my ex, out from nowhere. Saying that i'm like trying to set your minds up through my blog posts so that he'll look like the bad guy. Blaaah and any other things. Sunday morning, i haven't got much sleep yet --- it was a message bursting with hurt/anger/outrage/annoyance. Then it also pissed me off, usually i 'll be like 'Nope, i can't reply to it', but that message is an exception. I started voicing my side then he replied back. My hands started shaking and my knees became weak because of frustration. Geeez that's not the point of this blog. I didn't create this for ruining him, i created this for myself, my personal type of haven. Things are complicated enough, i don't want to add another drama in my life. (Read post no. 1, when it all started) *bow*

Don't Compare Me.

It's great to learn from past experience, but don't expect the same behaviors, qualities. likes and dislikes-and even motivations from your new partner. That would be incredibly unfair and erroneous. Blanketing someone with your ex's 'bio' is short-changing the both of you from a deeper level of knowledge, love, understanding and friendship. And please don't compare your ex to their face. They will not like that. If you must, be vague about where you remembered 'it'.
“I guess what makes me different from most girls is that I’m not the type to squeal all over you and I don’t ask for your attention at all times. I know what I want and I know how to get it but I don’t hurt people along the way. I can be a bitch but I’m also a weird obnoxious loser, but hey, that’s the truth in me. I guess you can say I’m complicated but I’d rather be difficult than easy anyday. I can be hard to figure out at times but if you know me, I’m not that much of a confusing person. So why don’t you actually open up your heart instead of just your eyes and take a look at me, then tell me that you love me.”-Unknown

Make Up Your Mind.

I was not born to insist myself to someone who doesn't want me. I give love, yes I do. I don't easily fall for someone who makes me feel special but when i do, my eyes and heart are set on him. But when I sense that the person is starting to get rid of me for good, I won't waste time. I won't wait for them to neglect my presence. Love don't fade easily, but mark my words. I can contradict my feelings just to make sure I won't look stupid.
“You had me. You had me and then you left. It has nothing to do with me, it’s all about you. And it’s always been about you: what you need and what you want. You know, it seems like you only want me when you can’t have me. You like the chase and that’s all. So you know what? You can have it.”
— The O.C.
Do not mess with someone else's feelings just because you are unsure of yours.

11:11 - Make A Wish

11/11/11 11:11 isn’t going to happen for another hundred years, so make it something worth remembering.

Whenever the clock strikes 11:11 - consider my wish already given. HAHA I don't know how it started, it's almost 2 years now, but the urge to say a wish every night never leaves me. I don't need a clock to tell it's already 11:11, i just knew it, maybe gut feeling or i'm just really used to it...

3 Month Rule.

I was once a believer of the three month rule, then I begin to realize that it’s nothing more than a socially imposed “norm”. I honestly have nothing against people who believe it - we have different ways of living anyway (and a little variety of fun too) but this “rule” doesn’t work for everyone. Yes, I get that this three month rule aims to give respect to the past relationship and all that jazz but I guess all that mainly depends on how both parties think and react. I believe that jumping into a relationship without following this “norm” is acceptable and it doesn’t mean you don’t respect the past one.

The One That Got Away.

I always find myself asking questions when I think about him. Like what if we never ended things between us? Where would we be now? Yeah, I take ALL the blame for the end of our relationship. Let's save the argument. I shouldn't have done it, i know, but it made me think clearly so i'm not regretting. I just felt sorry. During those time i'm still indecisive if i should hold on or let go coz i don't know what's going on with your mind. I actually need to thank you for choosing the decision for me even though you don't know that you're doing so, your last words made me realize what should be realized.

Inhale LOVE, Exhale HATE.

Just because I closed the book, doesn't mean the pain is going to go away quickly. I thought things were normal, things were looking better for both of us. Yes, you and I weren’t speaking, but we still were at least hanging on by a thread.

It sucks when you miss that person so much that you look through old photos, old text messages, even old statuses/tweets. Then you'll just remember him.. his eyes, smile, that look when you did something stupid, the way he'll mock you or tease you.. everything and it brings a smile to your face, but then the hurt comes back and you know you shouldn't be looking back, but you can't help it because they really meant something to you and you thought it would of lasted.