No matter where life takes us, we had something special. i never wanted it to end and i never wanted to replace it. but there's nothing i can do.
The moment when you feel hollow and go through the motions of living, but cannot seem to understand if you actually is or not. That moment when you’re trying to make sense of what happened and why you always cause this. That moment when you are so happy and then a familiar song comes around and it once brought you so high, but now the words swirl within your mind creating a horrible whirlpool that sucks away all feelings and leaves you completely empty. It's haunting me, i guess. HAHA It makes me laugh and fill with dread at the same time.
We had such an amazing time when we were together. It was just perfect. I really thought the world of him. Then out of nowhere things that should not happen, happened. I was distraught, heartbroken, and felt foolish.
We were like strangers, who knew each other very well.
What I don't understand is after all that hurt why do i miss him so much? Will it just go in time.. I'm not exactly hurting much now (that has passed) but I still think of him.. he appears in my dreams and stuff and always in my thoughts. A couple of weeks ago, he asked me a couple of times & he told me he wanted to meet me, so i believed i meant a lot to him..