The Girl Who Reads.

Hooray, i accomplished my goal of 50 books this year. I am 4 months in advance, so i decided to make my goal to 60. I love reading, it comes naturally to me almost like breathing. It takes me to a different world, especially if i want an escape. Sometimes i think that's my scapegoat, my personal escape line if i want to leave reality just for a while.

Sky of Love

Day 3 of sickness. Cold+flu+fever plus the bad weather equals a lil-bit-depressed me. I'm feeling alone as usual and bored as hell. So i rummaged my dad's collection of Movies last night and surprisingly i found  'Koizora' aka Sky of Love, it's actually one of my favorite movies from Japan. A tear-jerker movie, all about love and sacrifice. (:

I was in the middle of watching it when, the main character named Mika, said that Life's like running in a big circle, but sooner or later we will arrive at the place we really want to be.

The Bestfriend & The Soulmate.

I want to say, may you never steal, lie, or cheat, but if you must steal, then steal away my sorrows, and if you must lie, lie with me all the nights of my life, and if you must cheat, then please cheat death because I couldn’t live a day without you. -Leap Year

I really can't think of anything to write right now. Headache and runny nose is taking it's toll on me, so i can't think clearly but i'm a stubborn lil girl, so i gotta do, what i want to do... write something here. In the past couple of days i'm thinking is it possible to have someone who you'll always be a kid with & obviously of course it is possible. I've been into a relationship where we aren't just lovers but also good or best friends whatever it is. We laugh secretly to people who makes funny gestures, who does something stupid, we even diss them. HAHA yep, we are kinda mean, we make funny remarks to amuse ourselves. It's so cool to have that one person who you can always be a kid with, who you can always be best friends with and at the same time the love of your life.

Hi, i'm a Teenage Girl.

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don’t want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren’t as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they’re amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who’s brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree. -Unknown

Smile, You're Beautiful.

If he can't handle you at your worst, he don't deserve you at your best -Marilyn Monroe

Depressed, that's my mood for today. I have a friend who passed away a week ago. She died with a broken heart because her husband called it quits. So she committed suicide. I feel like crying now, because she's a very sweet girl and full of dreams. When i first heard the news i was so stunned, she was so young. She got so much ahead for her future. Another one is a friends who is very close to him... her boyfriend broke up with her. Leaving her in the state of melancholy and confusion. Don't know what to do, don't know how to move forward. Don't know how to start again and fix things for the better.

Expect Nothing, Appreciate Everything.

Time Check: 2:54 AM

This would be my very first personal post to date. I don't know if you're going to find it boring, inspiring, intimidating, or pure garbage. But anyway it doesn't really matter because this is my site. Just practicing my freedom of/to speech. Take it or leave it. *smile

Most people say they would go back to do 'things' right. But not me... i don't regret meeting you or falling in love with you, even after all the hateful things that had just happened. Day 16 after it all ended. I really can't comprehend this, my mind is still in full-scale shock. I keep on thinking that we could really have it all and it's a shame that it ended before it truly begin. No regrets though, i love because i love,  not because i just had to love. It still hurts, everyday you fight the urge not to cry in front of many people, to act like you don't care and not hurting, to keep your mask of courage all the time and so many things just to show that you're okay.

Verb: To love

To love is nothing.
To be loved is something.
To love and be loved is everything.

To love, to love, to love, even when you think your heart is exhausted by anger and fear and hurt and disappointment. To love. That is the larger task which connects us all. That is the narrative to which I hope i can strive. I'm a dreamer and a romanticist, i love love stories with a happily-ever-after touch but don't we all?. It's one of the most romantic and breathtaking thing in this world to know that there's someone out there for us, to love.

They Fall Out of Love.

People change, feelings change but it doesn't mean that the love once shared is not true, real and genuine. It sometimes mean that when they grow, they grow apart. - 500 Days of Summer

I'm watching 500 Days of Summer for the 3rd time, everything about it cuts right through me not because i'm relating my current love-life to the plot. It's just that it tackles reality, that sometimes 'once upon a time' happens and not just 'happily ever after'. *wink* Feels like the writer somewhat peeked into my diary. Break-ups, falling apart, breaking down, letting go... no matter what it is, i know it's painful, sometimes unbearable, and life-shattering. I've had my fair-shares of break-ups so when it comes to this i ain't no expert, but i know better.

“I don’t love you anymore.” "This is not working, we two grew apart." "You're not in my priority right now." "It's not you, it's me." "I'm breaking up with you." "There's someone else." 

A Prelude.

Love. Life. Aspirations. Dreams. Heartbreak. Friendship.

This blog focuses on these things, and the rest are just a bonus. :D

Let us begin this letter, this prelude to an encounter in the old-fashioned way: I love you.
You do not know me (although you have seen me, smiled at me, or knew someone i knew).
I know you or I will know you. So I do declare myself to you now, with pen set to paper.
I love you, for the love of friendship.

Writing. It’s a passion. It’s kind of what I do. It’s what I tend to do when I have nothing else going on. And it’s what I’ve been doing almost (but not entirely) non-stop since August. This blog is mainly for my own personal agenda. Instead of bottling it all up, this is my haven, my medium where i can shout my angst, emotions, fears, love, joy, happiness, sadness, deppression and all that!.. I'm that normal girl, who also goes through the roller coaster, we called life.

That moment when people tell you they like the way you write. And all you feel is warm fuzzies on the inside, because people believe in you and what you have to say.

When people appreciates my works, i really feel warm inside, the happy feeling you get everytime someone compliments your work, that's priceless. Some people tells me that they can relate to every post that I write whether it's about heartbreak or love, and for that I'm truly thankful. I always tells them that whatever happens, whoever they are. I'm here to listen, to support and be a friend. I hope that they'll stick with me untill I write my last post, i love them so much.. :)

I write what I can't speak out loud. I’m just really thankful God gave me the ability to write, because he just knows I suck at speechI'll post whatever i want, whenever i feel like doing so and wherever my heart takes me. This is mainly to anyone who cares.

xx, MarahGaa <3